LOL in mid-prayer?

Alright, alright, that was wrong... so here's what happened...

Our family sat down to discuss John 14:5-14 tonight, and afterward, as was our practice, we prayed together also. I have my personal study when I'm at school, so I enjoy these rare times when I get to actually sit down with everyone and talk about the Word of God.

Tonight, I was asked to pray, and as I asked around for prayer requests, one particular one came up that made me smirk. Yup, that's right, smirk. Reaaally now? You want me to pray about thaaat? Mkay, if you say sooo... I began to pray sincerely for all the requests made, leaving that particular one for last because I didn't know how to approach it... Then there I was, done praying for all the rest but this one... Ohh boy, here goes... A smile creeps up across my face and I tried to stifle my laugh, my sarcasm, my own sentiments... (P.S. If it's not already apparent, I'm quuuite a sarcastic person in general, so you see the struggle here...) So basically, I LOL in the middle of prayer, and right afterward, I felt that I had to rebuke myself and switched off my own thoughts, my own feelings, my own emotions and focus on the need, on the request... It was a tough one to pray for, one that went against my own heart, but I did it anyway.

This just goes to show I am not perfect, though some people might think I am. I'm only human, and with that said, I'm allowed to have human emotions. Throughout your life, moments such as these will come your way. You will be asked to make a choice: to live as you want to live or to live as God called you to live? WWJD, right? There have already been so many moments in my life (especially within the past few weeks) when I've had to decide to do things my way or God's way. It's so easy to fall into the trap of using human nature as an excuse. "Oh, we're fallen creatures anyway, it's fine." Revenge, malicious thoughts, angry outbursts--these are things programmed into our humanity as reflex responses to certain situations. "I'm gonna hurt you as bad as you hurt me. I hope you suffer." These serve as proof of man's fallen nature.

But we're called to rise above our circumstances and shine our light to the world, no matter what the situation. It won't be easy. In fact, I'm finding that in most cases, we're being called to do the exact opposite of what our human nature would rather do in the first place! (Go figure, right?) But remember, God will not put you through anything you cannot handle, so if you're facing challenges, struggles, or worries today, face them with courage and perseverance, and know that you are fully capable of weathering the storms of this life. All things will be made known one day, and only God has the right to judge. He will judge fairly and completely. It's not for you to wage war with your neighbor here on earth. The battle is the Lord's, whatever may come. Live for Him, for He knows your heart, and He will defend what is truly, genuinely right.